Ach Cailìn

Well, I tried to go back and I know now that I can't. I met up with a lot of my old friends, and some of them, I'm pretty sure I can have a relationship with them and others I know I can't. It's scarry how four years have gone by and some of them are in the same place. I mean, they may not be doing the same things but they're the same people, you know? It's weird. Maybe I'm the same person, you know? And I think that's what they were expecting. The same person. I don't know how I came off to them - if they noticed how different I am or not...I don't know.
But I do know that as much as I would love to throw myself back into that life, I can't. I'm not that person anymore. I have goals in life and doing what I was doing before will not help me acheive those. Not at all.