Ach Cailìn

Today, August 28th, a Thursday, I have found out that I am expecting a baby. Considering I am starting my second year of college, am not married and have no job, this baby is not something I expected, or eve, if I might say, wanted - at the moment. Having a baby was definitely on my to do list, however, it was for much later in life, maybe 4 or 5 years from now.
However, as I have had time to prcoess this new revelation, I have come to terms with it. I am, in fact, rather excited. At this moment, I have a living things growing inside my body that I am responsible for the growth and wellbeing.
I was afraid to tell Tyler, but when I told him, he seemed shocked but rather excited as well. We've talked a lot about the situation and have come to figure out a lot.
If I calculate properly, I am due end of April, beginning of May. Which means school will be done. I may not be able to finish the last two or three weeks in class, however, upon talking to my teachers, things will sort themselves out. As for the no job aspect, Tyler has assured me that he can hold the fort until I am able to secure something form home while I take care of the baby. Which I doing on my own free will. I can't bare the thought of having to rely on anyone, even if he is my soon-to-be husband.
So Ella May or Liam John is a welcome addition to our family, however unexpected.

I feel like I don't want to start my blog with some random entry, which is most likely what the case will be. This entry will tell you a little bit about me.

I am a grandaughter, a daughter and an older sister. My brother is one of my closest friends and I love him very much. He is five years younger than me which made it hard growing up but now we're as close as...well, brother and sister.

I have been dating the same man for over five years and I love him very much. We have been engaged to be married for quite some time now and I can't wait to be his wife. The date is set tentatively for February, but we'll see how that goes. It seems we never have enough money to even begin planning our wedding.

I am a "mother" of two dogs that I love more than life itself. Roo is my shih tzu and he's my "sober" dog, as I like to call him. I got him three weeks after I got clean and I feel that he may be my lucky charm. Molly is my newest dog, she's a pain in the ass but I love her anyways.

I've been clean and sober for almost four years now and I love it. Using was fun but it was hard. Hard on me physically, emotionally and spiritually. Most of all, it was hard on my soul. I chose to get clean for a thousand different reasons and although I look back often, I know this is the life for me. I love my life and all that there is to come. If I were not clean, I would not have such a bright future ahead of me.

Hope this helps.